I stopped going to church about 2 years ago. I became a church member when I was 22 year-old and I thought of the church as my family. I loved church and it was a great sorce of learning and love.  I was able to accomplish things that I thought were impossible for me.  However, over a 6 year process, I started to find that my spirit felt heavy every time I attended a service. I knew that it was not the churches fault but I did not know what to do about it….

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Mindful Eating

January 12, 2009

Have you ever had trouble remembering what you ate for lunch when its dinner time? Does your spoon give you your only workout for the day as you shovel down a pint of ice cream? Have you ever choked on a big piece of food because you had not chewed it up enough? Well I don’t know about you but I have been guilty of mindless eating. Whether I feel hungry or not, excited to eat or not, the results are usually the same, I sit down to eat while watching the TV or talking to my family without paying much attention to the food or my eating habits. This year I have a few goals that I want to accomplish but I decided that in order to help my success I would sometimes combine two or more goals. That started a web search on Mindful Weight loss which introduced me to the concept of Mindful Eating.


The Center Of Mindful Eating has created this a list of mindful eating priciples.

Mindful Eating is:
• Allowing yourself to become aware of the positive and nurturing
opportunities that are available through food preparation and consumption by respecting your own inner wisdom.
• Choosing to eat food that is both pleasing to you and nourishing to your body by using all your senses to explore, savor and taste.
• Acknowledging responses to food (likes, neutral or dislikes) without judgment.
• Learning to be aware of physical hunger and satiety cues to guide your decision to begin eating and to stop eating.


Stephanie Vangsness, R.D., posted an article on Brigham and Women’s Hospital that included an eating exercise:

Do this exercise with a friend. You will need one small slice of an apple for each person. One person reads the instructions listed below while the other person completes the exercise.

  1. Take one bite of an apple slice and then close your eyes. Do not begin chewing yet.
  2. Try not to pay attention to the ideas running through your mind, just focus on the apple. Notice anything that comes to mind about taste, texture, temperature and sensation going on in your mouth.
  3. Begin chewing now. Chew slowly, just noticing what it feels like. It’s normal that your mind will want to wander off. If you notice you’re paying more attention to your thinking than to the chewing, just let go of the thought for the moment and come back to the chewing. Notice each tiny movement of your jaw.
  4. In these moments you may find yourself wanting to swallow the apple. See if you can stay present and notice the subtle transition from chewing to swallowing.
  5. As you prepare to swallow the apple, try to follow it moving toward the back of your tongue and into your throat. Swallow the apple, following it until you can no longer feel any sensation of the food remaining.
  6. Take a deep breath and exhale.


Here a video to help you understand what it is to eat mindlessly.  When I watched it I have to admit it was a little weird at first but you get use to it.


There were a few links I found very helpful:

Mindful Eating by Thich Nhat Hanh

Mindful eating vs. mindless munching by Goldman

The CAMP System


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I was looking at Country Contemplative and I came upon this presentation byJohn Kabat-Zinn. Just to warn you the video is 1 hour and 12 minute long presentation.  If you are interested in mindfulness and meditation I think it is a great begining.  I am new to theses practices but I believe that what has been missing in my life, so I’m eager to learn.

Mindfulness Affirmation

December 8, 2008

I think that I am naturally drawn to spititual studies. For 8 years I studied the bible faithfully. About a couple a years ago I felt the need to refresh my spirit and take a bible break, so to speak. I found that, even though the bible talks about the importance of meditation somehow I was still missing the meaning and purpose. One night, after my husband went to sleep I cried out to God. I apologized for not doing the things I use to do and begged him to show me how to change and what was missing in my life.The next day I watched Oprah’s show and she recommended A New earth by Eckhart Tolle. I did not understand what the book was about but I felt a strong pull to purchase it. I think I went to the book store the next day and started reading it that night. The first chapter was a dozy. It seemed overly meta and mystical, or should I say far out. Though my mind made fun of it my heart had confidence that this might become an answered prayer. A couple a pages into chapter two I started to fall in love with the concept of mindfulness and disassociating myself from what Tolle calls the ego.I am very new to mediation and I have lacked discipline, but when I do commit to mediation and studying mindfulness I feel aware and joyful. I don’t know if you have picked up on my mood shifts in my writing yet; if you have trust me I am aware of that. I don’t personally mind it but I know that I can scare people away. Meditation is a way of grounding me so that I can see the world around me and it put me in a constant state of learning and enjoying and kills my flakiness. Mindfulness is like bring an art museum to work, experiencing a concert when the neighbors are noisy; in other being able to see the beauty in everything and appreciating everyone. Mindfulness is a muscle that has to be developed. I am new to it and lack a teacher and community but I am enjoying this new pursuit.

Has anybody else practiced meditation or study mindfulness? Please share your experiences and tips for beginner it was successful. Even if you hate the concept all together share why, I’d love to know.

Hidden Strength

November 26, 2008


Originally uploaded by Chris A. Campbell


…LL&L is supposed to be my online diary, so to speak; a chronicle of my life experiences and choices. I want to share the good the bad and ugly about myself. I’d always planned to other things too but knew that this would be a project that would challenge to come out of my comfort zone by deviling into my personal life and displaying it for anyone who cared to see. The first couple of months I experienced an inner bravery and confidence that felt new. As a social person who can experience platonic love at first sight, or contact (more internet appropriate I guess), I try so hard to be understanding. I hate when people are mean, harsh, critical, gossipy, two-faced, hypocritical back stabbers. I hate when people exclude, dismiss, belittle, look down on, and pick on people just in order to display their hysterical hierarchy. So me and LL&L have become an extremely open minded, loving, humble and patient. The cons of that is that I have lost my voice; in the pursuit of making sure that no one’s opinion is perceive as less important than my own I have stopped having opinions in general…

Exposing yourself takes strength and endurance. I do admire my strength, I have grown from a lot of difficult experiences, but I still lack… Read the whole post on my new blog Saturday Love.

Jeremiah 17:5-10

October 5, 2008

This is what the Lord says:

“Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the Lord. He will be like a bush in the wastelands; he will not see prosperity when it comes. He will dwell in the parched places of the desert, in a salt land where no one lives.

But blessed is the man who trusts in the lord, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”

The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?

“I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward a man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve.”

LL&L’s two cents:

A person, who depends solely on themselves or on other people, will eventually turn away from God. We are suppose to work hard for the things that we need and want out of life, but each person is very limited in their strength and resources.  God is without limits and he has infinite strength.  Without him trusting him we will have become lonely, desperate and blind.  Have you ever met someone who to you seems rich, talented or beautiful but can’t seem to see it?  I’m sure we’ve all been there.  We are working so hard to attain things that are right in front of us, but we don’t take time to celebrate our victories and accomplishments.  Even with when we are surrounded by love from our families or friends we feel alone.

Without confidence in God’s love and power you can be happy, but happiness is circumstantial and fleeting.  Happiness comes when something new and exciting comes into your life, but as soon as you get it its value and excitement depreciate quickly and you need to get a new and shinier thing.  Joy comes from your soul and never wanes.  Joy happen when we connect to our true selves, when we experience the presence of God and we look at the world and appreciate the beauty in all things.  Joy comes from trusting and God and through mindfulness.  To trust God more, pray more, asking for his help on specific matters and keep a prayer journal.  Highlight a prayer every time God comes through and you will understand why you should trust him.  To experience mindfulness, meditate more; start with breathing meditations and read books that will help you understand how to sit with your thoughts, feelings and perceptions.  A joyful man is a faithful man; when troubles come you will be confident that everything will work out and that you are already equipped with everything you need.

“The heart is deceitful above all things”; more deceitful than the mind, the eyes or the tongue.  Your heart will tell you your true motives, what you really love and what your only option is. Yes, your heart also possesses honesty and sincerity, just make sure you are also trusting God as you trust yourself.  You will hear people say, “God knows my heart” and they are correct.  God is the only one that knows your heart completely.  Our job is to guard are hearts so that it stays as pure as possible but to trust God as we choose our life’s path:  trust that he loves you, trust that he will answer your prayers, trust that he wants you to have an incredibly fulfilling life, trust that he will guide you towards your purpose, and trust that he knows you very well.  Jeremiah 17:10 states that God examines our hearts but rewards us by what we do. Don’t worry about what is hiding in the shadows of your heart. Instead focus on some good deeds you can accomplish; when you don’t feel like doing the good you know you ought to do, DO IT ANYWAY, and your heart will catch up eventually.